The family left today. We got up, had breakfast out, visited with my parents, and they packed up and left. We didn’t have time for a quick hike before breakfast, and when we got back to my house, it was time for them to pack up and go. It is a bit of a letdown.
We talked about things we hadn’t before and about the next time we would see each other. There was a lot of last minute stuff happening. Then they were gone. The house was quiet. There was nothing I needed to do. My body went into shutdown mode asking for a nap which I granted it. Then I thought that I would be productive and start getting ready for work on Monday and cleaning, but I was too sluggish.
There suddenly was no energy for work or even reading. I spent a lot of time on the computer doing mindless things instead of what I really should have been doing. Then I would walk into the kitchen to eat something I shouldn’t have eaten. This is a mental and physical struggle. I want to be busy, I want to be good. My body and mind have different agendas for me. Their agenda is to rest.
I don’t rest well. I feel guilty that I am not doing something. I should be hiking, cleaning, making something. So instead of letting myself rest completely, I fill the time with food and junk internet stuff. Instead of being productive, I am procrastinating. And, I still have my exercising to do today because we didn’t hike.
After I allow myself to rest these next couple of days, I need to be sure that I get back out on the trail and hike. I cannot allow the weather to stop me for I have already seen that it isn’t all that bad to be hiking in cold or windy weather.
This weekend was our start to a 52 week challenge to go out and hike at least once a week. I have the start, now I need to continue it like I am the 100 day challenge.
So even though, I am feeling a bit of a letdown, I need to get back out there and get over it.